Repeating the cycle, I've been here before
I've done it once, I guess I'll just do it some more
Self-sabotage is all I know, I'm closing the door
I can't let you in this mess I've made
I got some never ending sadness that don't seem to go away
It's a miracle that I just made it through another day
There's no light at the end, I'm just tryna be okay
And there's nothing wrong with life but its just something in my brain
I got a chemical imbalance
Sanity's a balance
I'm in love with hating life and I don't do it out of malice
My body's not a temple or a palace
It's a cardboard box with talents
Why would you love me?
I'm an idiot with drug abusing habits
Repeating the cycle, I've been here before
I've done it once, I guess I'll just do it some more
Self-sabotage is all I know, I'm closing the door
I can't let you in this mess I've made
I've been sober, I've been clean
But I still act just like a fiend
I pretend to have it all together
I'm still struggling
I almost relapsed last night
I got the bottle in the fridge
I can't bring myself to throw it out when I think of every bridge
That I've torched, that I've burned
Just like a pack of Luckies
I look at every mess I made and it's so fucking ugly
There's a mess in my kitchen, I'm so fucking depressed
I haven't done my dishes in a month and I can't stand the stench
Repeating the cycle, I've been here before
I've done it once, I guess I'll just do it some more
Self-sabotage is all I know, I'm closing the door
I can't let you in this mess I've made