An all too familiar scene I'm awake at three in the morning It's been two years and a lot has changed I guess that hasn't I still can't sleep at night I still get lost inside my head Desperate to find a way out I step outside to calm my mind Is this really what I want for my life? This is everything I've ever wanted Feels like misery to me I should be grateful, I should be happy But when I look at who I am now Someone who knows nothing Acting like they got it all figured out I look up at the night sky The void pulls me in I'm overwhelmed in all the vastness It's everything, but somehow feels like nothing I'm nothing It's all I've ever been So I ask myself again, what's the purpose? Is this really what I want for my life? This is everything I've ever wanted Feels like misery to me I should be grateful, I should be happy But when I look at who I am now Someone who knows nothing Acting like they got it all figured out My anxiety calls out to me With the desperate calls for nothing (Am I doing the right thing?) Am I doing the right thing? (Am I doing the right thing?) My depressions calling out to me With the self-destructive mantra (Am I doing the right thing?) Am I doing the right thing? (Am I doing the right thing?) I take a deep breath Try to let my thoughts subside I'm doing everything I can to keep myself alive Take another deep breath Look at the night sky Maybe it's dark, but in a few more hours the sun will rise My breathing's normal now My lungs can rest Things will get better in time, I just need to let time pass I collect myself At least for now And I decide inside myself to wait it out