Death feels
Cold
Cold, like shivering, like desperate
Like shoveling snow off a walkway after it rained
Or pretending like nothing changed
Grief
Heavy, heavy like moving every
Thing they own into a truck then unloading it
Somewhere else
Heavy like an empty house
Like helpless can't help yourself
Heavy heart weighs the whole body down
Death is deafening silence
But sounds like glass shatter
Like branches shaking
Like stuttering
Your words when you're uncovering
You're hurt and it sucks
Feels like your veins popping out
From adrenaline
Feels like sick
Without the medicine
Feels desperate for attention
But also wants to disappear
And never love again
Never love again
Like a bad break up
With a good friend
Holding in a secret fear
Like how are they not here, and I am still here
Putting pain on pause
Pacing thought to thought/
Looking for what you lost
But it's gone
I feel weird
If babies can learn to walk
If water can turn to ice
And wolves can turn to dogs
The least we can be is nice
To ourselves
People say I've got my mothers eyes
If caterpillars turn to butterflies
And hurricanes to summer nights
Then maybe I don't need to die
Yet
Don't forget what you've lived with
A tiny shift
A gentle spark
Could save your life
When you fall apart
When you fall apart again
You will fall apart
Again