Thought it was what it was
Work towards a set of goals
So i'd go to sleep and wake up for the rush
A feeling i can trust
This music shit is paying me enough now
Ain't shit changed, though, i chase it for the love
I don't take breaks, no discussions
Told myself i must work
All i'm undertaking is for us
Put in time
Time
I keep taking it from us
But what's the objective?
It keeps changing every month, no
Every week, every day, every minute now i'm running
All the starting line afforded me is worthless, I don't want it
Told myself if I can walk a mile, then I could run a hundred
With no finish line is sight though i'm not sure what I'm becoming
Anything that you want
Anything that you need
Girl you know i gotchu
Every week of the month
Every day of the week
Yuh
Thought you were what you are
Fuck with me at the start
Then up and leave me tomorrow
You're ever capricious as fuck
So maybe i ought to go run off a cliff just to keep you enthralled
But what'll happen when you're sleepy or bored
Apace, turn away from me while i fall?
And once my body meets the surface at last
Will you so much as even take a peak at the floor?
I doubt it
I somehow really doubt it
Yet i persist to seek your gaze
Again professing loudly i'll be
Anything that you want
Anything that you need
Girl you know i gotchu
Every week of the month
Every day of the week
Yuh
Thought i am what i will
Seek understanding myself
Work on rebranding my wealth
God dammit i've failed
Cause for all the capital built, i haven't actually healed
In fact i would go on to say I'm now half just as well
As i was years ago when in battle i fell
And succumbed to the shadows my parents did cast
Which i then helped grow at an elaborate scale
Self-sabotage embedded in my code
Feed these demons is all that i know
Anything that you want
Anything that you need
Girl you know i gotchu
Every week of the month
Every day of the week
Yuh
But why it gotta be like that?
Stuck on repeat like that?
What can i say?
That's always been me, my bad!
Killing me is my bag
What?