Thought that we was family
Saw eye to eye
Invited you aboard my boat
That seldom rocked side to side
We ate at the same table i've always strived supply
And now you trying to spread your name by lying on mine
Im hurt
This sucks
My work
My trust
I'm cursed as fuck
I'll learn
I must
I deserve better than this
I wish what keeps us tethered never dared to exist
And i pray the word of hatred that you've spread to these kids
Comes undone sooner than later, there is depth to your steps
I don't operate in bad faith, bro, i act decent
But the words you source your asshole from nonetheless have meaning
Took it upon myself to guide
Showed you my heart, took no disguise
Yet you still consciously decided to just toss that all aside
In favor of perceived personal gain
No grace
Maybe the drugs are really burning your brain
There's no trace
As you observe things irreversibly break
I wonder what or who the voice within you turns to now blame
I'm sick of getting tossed aside for what it's worth
My worth
I wasn't anything, I was a bridge to the everything
You were the lesson, I said it
The rhythm had tossed me on my side I'm in the dirt
I'm first
I wasn't anything, I was the trip to the better thing
All of the pressure was deafening
Pivoted off, I let it slide, I'm never first
My worth
I wasn't anything, I was a bridge to the everything
You were the lesson
I guess it pissed you off but I decide I know my worth
I'm first
I know my worth
I know my worth
I'm not afraid of you no more
Feelings on the back burner
Turned me to a fast learner
Every mention fill my cynicism
Is it just me? (Just me)
Seeking a stranger's validation
Every step slipping out the pavement
This was my shit, and now I hate it
I'm not blaming you
Well kinda I am
My therapist told me not to point no fingers
My momma had told me not to take no shit
My trauma had told me not to fucking linger
For what? I'm a mess on a Tuesday
Got my life, you were stretching it two ways
Out of spite, had to deafen what you say
I ain't saying nothing less than the truth, hey, hey, hey
Don't talk to me unless it's "Sorry! Sorry! Sorry!"
I ain't try the fucking cake, but hey, the pity party's gnarly
I got pitchfork tips, they poking innards
Got a list of shit you won't remember
How convenient how your brain works
Mystery Link red-stained shirts
Better talk me down, that ledge is tempting
All these workarounds got me pessimistic
You won't ever grant me that empathy that I granted you
I guess we just different
The saddest part about it is I trusted you
Against my very instincts
Thank god I had the chin-strength
Yeah
Take a look inside
Ain't nothing left for me, for me to hide
You took my love
You took my light
I should've expected you would fake me out this time
Woah
What do we deserve?
Who decides who decides? Who decides?
Woah
What do we deserve?
Do we decide who decides?
I will not get lost in intentions
Walking off with my innocence
I thought I lost all long ago
I guess I'm often not broad in scope
All for a reason
Lost in my feelings
What you think you're dealing with?
Do I deserve it?
Do you deserve it?
What do I deserve?
Who do you deserve?
What do we deserve?
I think I lost place
Should I shrug off my weight
Could I fix all my holes
And then go on my way
I don't know
I just don't know
My worth
I wasn't anything, I was a bridge to the everything
You were the lesson, I said it
The rhythm had tossed me on my side I'm in the dirt
I'm first
I wasn't anything, I was the trip to the better thing
All of the pressure was deafening
Pivoted off, I let it slide, I'm never first
My worth
I wasn't anything, I was a bridge to the everything
You were the lesson
I guess it pissed you off but I decide I know my worth
I'm first
I know my worth
I know my worth