Yeah
I asked the voices when they'll stop (stop!)
They stopped already
I figured that a heavy heart don't make one's pockets heavy
I feel my self-awareness slippin' away
Bit by bit every day
I can tell and yet I'm not objecting
Thoughts projectin' losses all across external folders
These cords around my neck pullin' me back, I still go forward
Viewing blue scenes, still blue screens
Inside I loop screams until I lose steam
Do I miss her?
Do I miss love?
Do I miss company or all of the above?
Do I miss me?
Do I miss us?
Do I miss peace or do I simply miss the drugs?
Fact is, I'm missin' out on now
Eyes to the ceilin', soul sinkin' to the ground
My mind escapes me, tears pouring down my face
The voices return chanting "all is falling into place"
Anxiety persists, got me posted by the window
Alas, no one comes around
Sometimes I don't exist, I feel this when I'm indoors
The walls never make a sound
So I keep flying at the speed of light
Trying at the speed of light
But I keep dying at the speed of light
Though I ain't die yet, I might miss a beat tonight
Cogito ergo sum, there's something wrong with me
Man, I got evil in my tongue so the others don't respond to me
Fight visceral dichotomy, I can't let myself get to me
Pondering lobotomy, considering lobectomy
The mirror shows an enemy, I guess I keep my foes close
Misery loves company, our dates are never postponed
Dancin' in the darkest halls, we've had a couple close calls
Two left feet but the devil doesn't loathe those
Escaping the ozone again
On the bathroom floor with no clothes again
Almost succeed, get so close but then
Self-pity sets in, I postpone the end
But it gon' happen one day
Fail to take off and just crumble on the runway
Yeah, it gon' happen one day
When my heart stops, my brain freeze, my lungs break
Anxiety persists, got me posted by the window
Alas, no one comes around
Sometimes I don't exist, I feel this when I'm indoors
The walls never make a sound
So I keep flying at the speed of light
Trying at the speed of light
But I keep dying at the speed of light
Though I ain't die yet, I might miss a beat tonight