This addiction, my only friend. gives me a reason to wake up again. i'll medicate Till i see fit. i have a bad habit that never quits. now drown these demons and aim To kill. all these memories disappear with the pill. take the substances to clear Your mind. and still you'll question answers that you think you'll find. as the Venom enters the vein. i can't help but feel hopeless again. i can't do this on my Own. i'm so sick of this place. i can't help but feel shame and disgrace. the pills Never work, the drinks never end. i keep praying that this is pretend. show me that You're still out there. when i begin to stray. put me back together. because I need a better way. god if you can hear me. i'm through with being sick. i'm dying on The inside. i need a different fix. i can't do this on my own. i'm so sick of this place. I can't help but feel shame and disgrace. the pills never work, the drinks never End. i keep praying that this is pretend. i can't do this on my own. i'm so sick of this Place. i can't help but feel shame and disgrace. the pills never work, the drinks Never end. i keep praying that this is pretend. i need a different fix.