I make every decision in my life I make the wrong decisions all the time No matter what the world is looking like We fuck up and get up again And that's the part that terrifies me I've been in places where I couldn't see The light at the end might get switched off again And there's nowhere to go when the dark finds me And maybe that's okay An acceptance in a way The illusion of control Doesn't serve us anymore If there's nowhere we can run Then there's nowhere else to be So I'll sit right here with you Try to find the space to Breathe I know what I'd change about myself If you want me to, I need your help I find I'm always trying way too hard For things I that don't even think I want Tap my shoulder and say I should like this one day And it's all that I will ever think about Now I realize that you didn't know me You were drunk and you just wanted to see If it would make you feel good To give advice that you should Have taken back when you were sixteen But I'll make the same mistakes All I wanted was a break From the simple and mundane When we have it feel the same Now I want that simple life I'll deny myself the right To an earth ship in the hills I'm afraid of sitting Still I know what I'd change about myself If you want me to I need your help It's bold to assume you'd change me If you cared enough you'd sooner leave My vision's clouded with your compromise You made a promise, look me in the eyes And tell me what was more important I know you have to pay your mortgage When will I stop entertaining This idea that I'm not changing Days go by and I accomplish more than I blink an eye at I don't know who I am without this The suffocation of industriousness But at least I know that I use you to distract myself with And I'll never be fixed