I drove my car into a lake back on Friday Cus I hadn't had a shower since like Tuesday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay So I drank a lotta gin blackout wednesday Got me back on nicotine on the Thursday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay Can't get outta bed so you know I don't do it breakfast I don't drink no coffee cus it makes me act so reckless I'm a dirtbag I can't get my shit together Know your momma glad, that we ain't still together I live to turn it up, fill my cup, drink it up, fuck the club In my living room smoking back to back blunts All the doors closed, blinds down, bud tins, blunt guts Dirty shirt, house shoes, stale bread with cold cuts Damn, this shit like a crime scene, Modelos in IV's, nightmare's inside dreams Don't do it like I do, give up way too soon Dark as a winter moon, two lies don't make it true I drove my car into a lake back on Friday Cus I hadn't had a shower since like Tuesday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay So I drank a lotta gin blackout wednesday Got me back on nicotine on the Thursday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay Throw me out a line cus I think I might be sinking And I sabotage my time, and I think that I'm reason That I fuck up, I switch up, I change up, I lose it I break shit, I drive fast, I lose grip, I won't last Death of the party, nobodies nobody And I've been drinking all day, and the moon ain't got stop me I guess I'll sleep when I'm dead feels like I'm sipping on lead Three shots to the face but then they go to my head I'll pay for this tomorrow, need a 20 can I borrow? Cus my mind been filling up but my heart just feels so hollow Stormy weather, 3 day bender put it down it gets better Put it down it gets better Damn, this shit like a crime scene, Modelos in IV's, nightmare's inside dreams Don't do it like I do, give up way too soon, Dark as a winter moon, two lies don't make it true I drove my car into a lake back on Friday Cus I hadn't had a shower since like Tuesday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay So I drank a lotta gin blackout wednesday Got me back on nicotine on the Thursday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay Everything's been getting harder All the light's been getting darker Walls are closing in and I'm scared that I keep falling farther I'll be strong just like you told me Tell me that you're there to hold me Let me in so I can show you All the strength that you have taught me Cus Friday was the worst day It ended in the worst way I'll make it through to Saturday Promise that you're okay Promise that you're okay And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay but I'm not okay And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay but I'm not okay I drove my car into a lake back on Friday Cus I hadn't had a shower since like Tuesday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay So I drank a lotta gin blackout wednesday Got me back on nicotine on the Thursday And I'm telling all my friends that I'll be okay But I'm not okay