There's a black cloud, hanging over my head Strip me back and there's not much left What's the point of going outside? The world won't change if I live or die I used to take all the strain I used to hate on the world I used to sink to the depths just to reach new lows But now I'm finding my feet And now I'm free to let go I had to give up pain, to take control I've spent my life not diving in, just feeling low I've spent my life not going in, but here we go I'm doing fine, getting by on my own Wonder why when I'm high, I feel so alone I hate my self-deprecating I hate my self-medicating There's a black flag hanging over my bed There's no point in losing sleep over all the words I left unsaid Its bad luck, it's bad luck It's just life, just calling my bluff Can't keep putting life off forever I've spent my life not diving in, just feeling low I've spent my life not going in, but here we go I'm doing fine, getting by on my own Wonder why when I'm high, I feel so alone I hate my self-deprecating I hate my self-medicating I hate my self-loathing I'm over it Self-loathing I'm over it