Another sleepless night - it's 4 AM
I'm spiraling into this dark place that I am always in
Can't find no sense and no confidence in anything
I'm dreading my existence - I see myself in the distance
I see the hollow shell I used to call my home in reminiscence
A bare bag of bones just floating round with no resistance
Caught in the system no sense of purpose, just pure persistence
Might need some help, some assistance, to make a fucking difference
But I'll make a fucking difference
I finally realized - I have to straddle my own destiny
It wouldn't all just come to me - have faith in my ability
No more making up excuses - leave me while I grind
Moving past the smoke and mirrors, that I used to hide behind
It took me long enough - to finally see the skies clear again
To see the dark clouds, move on - but fuck I truly needed them
20/20 vision always crystal clear in hindsight
Fuck me what a trip it's been, so buckle up and hold tight
Dead - All the things in my head
Turning to liquid again
I was calling, calling
Calling your name
20 years down the drain
Now I'm back in the game
I was falling, falling, falling again
I used to hide the fact, that I was really not OK
All the endless thoughts of suicide would haunt me through the day
I couldn't say these thoughts out loud, I couldn't speak to anyone
I wanted to be seen as strong - so I fucking swallowed them
Confronting my worst fears, when I get up on song
The blood and sweat and tears - every battle that I've won
Against my inner demons, against my own self-doubt
Against the voices in my head, that I could live without
Before I wind up
Dead - All the things in my head
Turning to liquid again
I was calling, calling
Calling your name
20 years down the drain
Now I'm back in the game
I was falling, falling, falling again
All these roads
Lead straight to hell
I hide away
In my own cell
That I have built
Around myself
So, for tonight
I'm breaking free