"Good and evil are so close as to be chained together in the soul."
If he be Mr. Hyde I shall be Mr. Seek
But I seek only the good in the monster but those things linger deep
For too long I've kept the ego in a cage
But the damage my doubts did was basically the same
Confounded questioning my flaws- with doubting my virtues
Pushed away people that loved me and said: I'm scared I'll hurt you
Shook hands with lotta folks I'd rather wage war on
Contradictory idiot, oxymoron
Stopped living life- and let it live me
Exposed my heavy doubts proudly thought they'd lift me
Huh - shit, they didn't
I was cooking the right meal but in the wrong kitchen
When all you got for spice is insecurity and fear
Don't be surprised when your clientele is all bitching
Sometimes the right decision is to be mistaken
Sometimes a trumpet sounds better muted
Sometimes memories that maim you make more sense at a later viewing
Learned that I can't hate myself for shit I don't do
Can't be who you wanna be letting your fears taunt you
Feared that all my pride would falter if I let the fear grow
Tears show feared that my ego'd outgrow me
So I was scared to let the fear go
Me telling myself that I'm the goat to alleviate my stressing
Is my go to method to express that all I go through
Is part of my goal to uncover the whole truth
In hope to keep my people from saying I'm only fucking with the old you
Wish I could look at myself yesterday and say that I've changed a lot
Hard to navigate this new sense of liberty when I relied on chains a lot
But I refuse to lose and have that be the main force behind my will to continue
Learned you have to master both the doubts and the ego
That you wielding within you
Two faces of the same coin wonder what that thing can buy me
Hard to estimate my worth it's blurry when I think about me
Give it all to the music but will there be change left
Walk the long run but will there be range left
Transplant my pride man had a change of heart
Stomached my fears got the guts to let them part
Need no more potion to alter my ego
Being me doesn't always mean confidence, but I'm confident in being me tho
With every day, and from both sides of my intelligence, the moral and the intellectual
I drew steadily nearer to the truth
By whose partial discovery I have been doomed to such a dreadful shipwreck
That man is not truly one, but truly two