The water fills my lungs, as I gasp out for air A delusion of my former self, a thought I can't bare I shift my focus to avoid discontent But I'm drowning in abysmal endless torment I swear it happens every day, I'll try to feel better But every day I'm falling further and further, I can't sleep I've got so many problems I'm not stopping 'til I reach the bottom I can't pull myself forward It's a fucking disorder I'm just so tired, I'm uninspired It's like a guilt trip, sad song, desperate to feel alive I'm losing sleep just to lose my mentality One more second 'til the brink of insanity I can't pick myself back up I have waited my entire life for this Self deception radiates within me Barricade all my thoughts in these walls I can't find my way back out I can finally see that I'm living a dead memory And I can finally say I'm better off hanging Up from above Suspended Bound by chains I can't pull myself forward It's a fucking disorder A fucking disorder