There's something about me I refuse to believe I've done Something so dark I can no longer see the light of the sun It keeps me up at night So hold my heart, am I even still alive I'm biting my cheek, this is a fucking disease Biting my cheek, this is a fucking disease Wash me away with the dirt inside myself I can't stay when death looks down on me I am ready to take the blame For the monster that I am Let me just fucking die Let me just fucking run from this place Cut me up, my guts will show my disgrace I take my issues with me (I promise, I promise) I take my issues with me Wash me away with the dirt inside myself I can't stay when death looks down on me Wash me away with the dirt inside myself I can't stay when death looks down on me You didn't want to face the way I am Now watch your world fucking burn What? What? You didn't want to face the way I am You didn't want to face the way You didn't want to face the way I fucking am Wash me away with the dirt inside myself I can't stay when death looks down on me Wash me away with the dirt inside myself I can't stay when death looks down on me Damned if I go Damned if I don't So damned if I go Counting my days You're better off without me