A blank page to form and fill The abstract absurdity to get control of my dreams Shattered thoughts inflict with reality My mind sets off on a journey on its own into misery Anger, aggression out of control The mind living on its own Can never be saved Just condemned my-self to death Surrender my will, I'm about to explode How can I bear this horrible truth? Something I can't understand So many things I want you to know Enemies behind every face Every one wants to see me dead Spinning thoughts in an endless loop A ticking bomb waiting to explode So many things I can never undo A victim of my own dark sickness An outcome no one ever could forsee It was not me but a monster inside Paranoia desperation set free If you for a while could be me So that I clearly could see So many things I didn't know I was able to do Like the murder of you Can't repair what I caused A horror world swirls around An escape from disillusion Please hand me the solution No turning back, for once I'm clear in my head Can only end this by my own hand Is this how I can repay my deeds? This is what I can do at least The page I can not reset, my future lies after death