My scar collection is proof that I've been through hell and lived to tell about it So let the misery pour down on me like fucking rain The day I realized where every ecstasy lies was the day my suicide plot slowly dissolved What's the point in ending an existence before its time My influence will live on after I die Save your tears for a day when you can lend a river to free them Save your tears for a better day to drown your fucking sorrows I've spent countless nights with nothing more than the thought of suicide There is a battle within that I'm not sure is worth winning Even if hell is imminent, every thought is a plague To everyone I love, just know I've always wanted so much more I used to love the rain until it fell everyday I used to love the rain until it flooded everything Save your tears for a day when you can lend a river to free them Save your tears for a better day to drown your fucking sorrows Bless this mess Everything I say revolves around this fucking pain I can't decide whether it's worth the fucking time, to even speak Everything I say revolves around this pain, I can't decide... is it worth the time to speak One day I realized where every ecstasy lies