I've been down on my knees not trying to pray just resting my feet
Take a dose of reality and dissect my personality
To cut out the pieces I don't need
So I can build a better me from me
Meet my friends down at the creek throw a stone in the blazing heat
Get high get drunk get anything to find a sense of belonging
Convince myself I wanted to be seen
But it's not that easy and I'm starting to feel kinda queasy
I just need some fucking guidance or any kind of sign
That what I'm doing is what is meant to be
Tell a joke in the morning smoke breathe in breathe out hold onto hope
Thrive survive just be alive try to find some peace of mind
Convince myself today will be fine
But it's not that easy and I'm starting to feel kinda queasy
I just need somebody's touch some skin against my own
To make me feel like I'm enough
Why am I so fucking angry I'm always so pissed off
I needed something new I even tried playing golf
But I can't hold the clubs right and I can't hit the ball straight
And now I'm feeling scared I got too much on my plate
And I can't relax
Even when I'm comfortable
No I can't relax
Even when I'm asleep
I want to tell you I hate you I want to make it go away
I want to tell you I hate you I want to make it go away
I want to tell you I hate you I want to make it go away
But if I tell you I hate you then you will make me stay
I want to tell you I hate you I want to make it go away
I want to tell you I hate you I want to make it go away
I want to tell you I hate you I want to make it go away
I want to tell you I hate you and then
Just fucking walk away