Well
I'm making this bigger than it is
And can't stop, reassurance is a bitch
Coaching my brain to forget and get a grip
But in order to grow muscles gotta rip
Sporadically, a window of normality
Then fallacy, so disparaging
My focus goes, I instigate myself
Think I know how it goes, but it never goes well
Start to feel selfish, damaged, always was
Hope I lose my baggage of fear via love
Hours pass I'm still drifting
Forget about whatever is my mission
Fall in the deep end, reinforce my instincts
I chase my breaths each time that I'm sinking
I can't sleep
R.O.C.D
At the root its all reassurance
Pampered ego the unhealthy version
Helps excavating out some closure
Middle ground is self-deprecating braggadocio
Stirred pot simmers
Numbs to depression
Float by indifferent
Too dumb for the lesson
Triggers get sensitive
Anxiety blossoms off of off-topic sentences
Back with a vengeance
Definitely a problem
Reassurance don't end it
You're flexing at marble
Give yourself credit
I know you want to and you don't get it
Reassurance, Sisyphus' hill
Fight it with your will
I'm tired of the feels
Reassurance, the obsession isn't real