(Trap exec, trap exec, trap exec)
Doobie
A friend who turns their back is just a friend i never needed
They only show you love when they in desperate times
Roll up blunt just for the face cause sometimes I really need it
Why the only time they call is when the rent behind
When you're surrounded by users it's mentally abusive
How can I get you help if you don't ever wanna use it?
And then you think I'm stupid, it's truthfully confusing
You try to tell me lies but you act like I ain't been through it
Just keep it real with yourself what you feeling I done felt
Times a million on myself, this on me
This time I ain't gonna let you put the blame on me
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
Now I got money in the bank, people act like they need me
Remember I was poor, shorty act like she ain't see me
I'm tryna find my soul, it was buried down beneath
The anxiety disorder that continuously eats me
In the belly of the beast, I just hope you see the beauty in my flaws
I was running out of answers till I met you
I tell you it ain't easy, at first, I ain't wanna get involved
I was hoping you would leave, but I can't let you
The liquor with emotions, the truth comes out
You all by your lonesome, can't figure shit out
Life's a hard pill to swallow and it there ain't nobody around
Every time I said I love you I want you to know I meant it
It seems like we keep our distance now but that don't mean no difference
And I do not do no fishing, you ain't had my best of interest
When it come down to the business I'm the one that really gets it
I dig it for my city in a major way I do it for Big Mike until the day I can't
My son don't even know how rich he really is
I wonder how much money his dad made today
You know my pops died when I was 5
So I didn't really get to do no father-son shit
You know like, throw the football, throw the baseball, type shit
And then I had a son and I realized I'm like "man, I finally get to do that"
Made a few mistakes but you my newest lesson
Had to put my pride aside like the student section
She tell me lie after lie, she don't do confessions
Fighting fire with fire, I bought some new protection
To lend to the confusion Sometimes I get dyslexic
Her phone goes both ways, I ain't the one who texting
And shawty go both ways, I call her ambidextrous
And she ain't no good for me, I call her infectuous
We be deeper in the crib, see the bigger picture
Two foreign girls in my bed, Malcolm in the middle
You mad I do it bigger? You only did it little
The proof is in my numbers, they know my shit hit different
I'm talking figures like bare brick and cars independent
Cause these labels ain't gon' care for me at all
While y'all out here signing deals Just so they can take it all
I'm in the mall at Saks Fifth
Like "yeah, I'll take them all, in every color"
I'm living in the moment
It's done all I wanted cause I make my own money
And it ain't nobody business
Why they keep counting my pennies
Cause this shit make people act a little different
Once you get it for real
They say I ain't been rapping I think I'm just saying it in a different way
Sometimes you gotta close your eyes and open up your ears and just listen