I hate this So this is my life, I guess My motivation is depression and the urge to change My written words contain, an outlet for pain I held inside, confined, in this worthless maze Now my pen bleeds ink to express on page Hey, is like 'where did ma youth go?' I wasted most of that, in a booth with a puke flow I moved around loads through flats in a loophole And never found myself (nah) I'm surrounded with people yet I feel so lonely If only, I held one person closely Enough, to trust, to talk to solely I wouldn't need drink and these drugs to hold me (Up) that's why a feel so shite Live in fear; shed a tear in the dead of the night People always going to hate and judge on what I write I guess a suicide note would be all that they'd like, its like Why do I still do it, try and move it to loose it And while am at loose my mind, though its mine to abuse it Its no crime spitting fluid, but they stopping the flow, damn But I ain't stopping for no man I know man, that life's as cold as an old man Who hates everything because he wasted his whole damn Life with the tripe and the fight for his own calm But life's not nice when youre following no plan Or gave up, but look at things Ive gave up My whole social life is a mic in mates clubs My graves up, what more can be said Lay a flower on it now because I'm already dead Its like How would you feel spending your time Focused on rhymes as your love life's falling behind Getting chucked out your house as a teen to find Your own feet in this gritty cold city we reside And is it fine, being addicted to wine And weed smokes the only thing that can calm your mind When petty crime takes the time like right off of school So now your backpack contains stolen goods and a tool (Cool) I'm the youth of today Lead astray with the pencil lead leading the way And this page is still my best opportunity So now lets see what few awkward tunes can do And it will be my release You can see the real me as I explain on beats Not the punch-line chat, nah, I go beneath Because I'm going out my mind, peace