The weight on my shoulders is like cargo And I don't wanna know how deeply that my scars go It's like the fetus in the womb by Leonardo They got me feeling like Buscemi out in Fargo As a kid I would just stare up at the stars though And pray that eventually I'd have a God's flow Remember riding in my father's Monte Carlo Two months later he dead, now I'm in a fog broke Papi, Mami, I love you, but what do you do when there's trouble How do you process that life is a beautiful struggle? I could end it fuckin' all without moving a muscle And I'm too old to let the left loose in a scuffle How do I deal with the designation to be ill? As far as (I see I know?) separation isn't real I don't believe in the philosophy that schism kill Cause every time I kiss my son it warm my inner chill I try to stay sane in this game it ain't easy, hey I done made my own lane, and I swear you'll believe me, hey I live in this world full of anger and hate And nobody is safe in this place but (?) or me I try to stay sane it ain't easy, hey Nothings equivalent to the deep pain I was given And what I'm giving is something for you to sit and figure The derivative of it, even if you can love it Most of them hate it but fuck em You can suck my dick when it's uncovered (?) everyone under the sun Where it's coming from summer close to living with none I been dealing with it, (?) Just paint my fucking canvas with the pictures I'm hearing about Been sinking every day of my life It's getting older couple mil man damn that'd be nice How many shows do I gotta fucking murder? (?) until they can splash the industries Like a sea of infinity of blatant trash, ha All I can do is laugh at it While I'm struggling with sobriety like a classic addict Someone call the record labels and let em know That I don't give a fuck if I make it or never blow I try to stay sane in this game it ain't easy, hey I done made my own lane, and I swear you'll believe me, hey I live in this world full of anger and hate And nobody is safe in this place but (?) or me I try to stay sane it ain't easy, hey Feel the hellfire, the heaven on ya Think some day I'll reach my dreams but I'm never gonna I got a screw loose, and a deuce deuce You got some more lies. I got some new truths When the hellfire comes and it's burning ya You either find out that you was or (?) ya I'm still fucked, sleeping on my friend's furniture But I stay determined cause I know what I can turn into They told me that I couldn't do what I did I saw the future, I just knew as a kid I would visualize the life that I grew up to live When you listen to me rhyme, I tell you who the fuck is The legend rebel, the peasant devil The high court MC, smash anyone against me with heavy metal My balls are big enough to break walls at every level My music (?) kids from all towns and every ghetto I'm an anomaly mommy, nobody's calming me or Life isn't easy, is it? When all you see is a blizzard I'm going back to demic I think I need a visit I try to stay sane in this game it ain't easy, hey I done made my own lane, and I swear you'll believe me, hey I live in this world full of anger and hate And nobody is safe in this place but (?) or me I try to stay sane it ain't easy, hey I try to stay sane in this game it ain't easy, hey I done made my own lane, and I swear you'll believe me, hey