Man I'm feeling kinda down lately
What I had before is now gone
Losing confidence feet no longer on the ground maybe
Like I'm levitating
On my fucking way to heaven maybe
Lost too many man it is devastating
Book me now you better pay me
I need to pay bills
I don't want another job that I hate
Same story another different day
Nine to five throwing life away damn
But I know that this shit can work
I have to work another day
Let me travel the world
There are lives out there that I can change
Man I think so
Scars showing even I'm not proud of what I've been through
Gotta win tho
Too much on the line
And I'm not throwing this out the window
And if I do I'll jump with em
Too many people took my story and they took a run with it
Silver bullets man you can fill a gun with it
And u might see me laughing all the time but I'm not really having fun with it
Maybe you do and that's exactly why I'm done with it
Man I'm done with it
How it is right now
Man I'm done with it
I don't wanna live it like I'm nobody
I just wanna feel like I matter
You won't understand why I feel like this
One day it will better
One day I won't live it like I'm nobody
One day I will feel like I matter
One day you understand why I feel like this
One day it will be better
Listening to Pac and he told me
It's not weird to feel lonely
Better days will come
Just keep ya head up and show them
It was worth it
Mannnn ain't nobody know what kinda shit I've seen
And how bad life can be
The mistakes I've made and the mistakes that were made for me
The past should be the past
But damn some things I would change
The days of not going home for weeks
Mom married to a guy I hate
So yeah I felt lonely
14 years old smoking weed to forget the world
Nobody to hold on man that shit hurts
And that turned into drinking thats a curse
Kicked out of school just to make it worse
Now my mom driving around te city looking for me to see if I was safe
Saw her crying
Never smoked a joint since that day
She left her husband in 2008
May 16 gotta save the date.
Man it was the best day of my life
I take that in my grave
But still sometimes man
I'm back at that place
Sometimes I travel time in my head
There is so much I won't forget no
I have no control of where I go
There is so much that I regret
I don't wanna live it like I'm nobody
I just wanna feel like I matter
You won't understand why I feel like this
One day it will better
One day I won't live it like I'm nobody
One day I will feel like I matter
One day you understand why I feel like this
One day it will be better
It wil be better
It will be better
It will be better