I'm not myself right now something went
Crazy how all this shit started for fun
Now all these shows that I'm doing aint fun
But imma keep moving cause I made the one
I'm not myself right now something went
Tryna put on for the place that I'm from
Nobody knows bout the place that I'm from
So I'm tryna put us all on all on
I got some gang that came up from the slums
They from the cid bitch like go grab a gun
Crazy how all of this started for fun
Fuck it we taking out some of the drums
My time, its my time
I've been at it for a long time
Red shirt season baby I was on the sideline
You was my lifeline, something I had in the night time
Put that all behind, cause I'm
I'm scared right now
I feel dead right now
Not myself right now
I'm scared right now
I need help right now
By myself right now
I'm scared right now
I feel dead right now
Not myself right now
I'm scared right now
I need help right now
By myself right now
Should probably call me a therapist
Haunted by thoughts that I'm constantly carrying
Only escapes through this art that I cherish lately
It seems like its all the same narrative
Its hard to be mindful of that shit
Whenever I've been stuck with a mindful of madness
A war going on, my mind is help captive
If these walls could talk they'd likely be padded
Lost touch with the person that I thought I was
Mamma worried every time that she calls me up
While my friends try and tell me I don't talk enough
I don't really have the energy
Yeah struggle just to manage the fear the man in the mirror
It's a long road ahead and I cannot see clear
Gods been calling I aint answered in years
So hand me a beer for the loss of the sanity, cheers
Drown in my sorrow with me, they'll be gone once the bottles empty
Who have I become and its all a mystery
Pouring out all of my pain on the rocks don't tempt me
Like hear me out, I'm on the ledge right now
And the drugs they don't help right now
Do you care right now, would you help me down
If I tried to put an end to what I felt right now
I'm scared right now
I feel dead right now
Not myself right now
I'm scared right now
I need help right now
By myself right now
I'm scared right now
I feel dead right now
Not myself right now
I'm scared right now
I need help right now
By myself right now