Oh god make me pure Cleanse my soul and joie de vivre restore to us all I'm not asking I'm sure I know that I want it I swear I'm not fucking around I am straight faced and scowling and Spitting out words from my core I can't figure it out I thought that I had it I felt it like static It burnt when I grabbed it I swear that I had it Easy like the drinks I swallow Cuz baby I've got no path to follow I just want to feel it again The pulse of a heartbeat like life never ends I wanted to hear it again The sound of a crowd cheering we're on the mend I wanted to feel it it again Everything feels so uncertain Yet habit, goddamnit, is standing its petulant ground It's ok sweetie, it's easy, Believe me God help me out I'm devout-ly Trying to be what I thought that I'd be with no doubt I see it fade so easy Easy, fuck It's not easy, fuck I wanted to feel it again the pulse of a heartbeat like life never ends And I thought that I'd see it again The bright eyed and wandering gaze towards a distant gold place where it's Easy like the drinks I swallow Cuz lately, it feels like trash... is to follow I just want to feel it again The pulse of a heartbeat like life never ends I wanted to see it again The ground beneath right where I stand I wanted to feel it again I can't stop losing the rhythm I can't keep on falling to pieces and Gritting my teeth I keep hold of the rhythm I slip into cycles I wish it would end