I feel tossed around like satellites
No direction for me to define
Yeah, 'cause I went through highest highs and
Never felt reality, that I had spent my life in
So many times I tried to run away
I thought I can escape from myself
Yeah, I'm a hostage to my own pride
Maybe it should be like this, that
I'm not feeling alright
I really, really don't know
Why I deserve this
I really, really don't know
Why it still hurts me
I really, really don't know
If it's just the surfaces
Why it's so hard to realize?
Why it's so hard to realize?
Whenever I feel bad, I tell myself:
These ups and downs are just a part, as well
As all my thoughts and my sleepless nights
My sleepless nights
Yeah, negativity came over me
Worse than anything I've ever seen
But I would never admit that I'm sick
I'm always one who sees the light
Instead of resting on it
I really, really don't know
Why I deserve this.
I really, really don't know
Why it still hurts me.
I really, really don't know
If it's just the surface.
Yeah I really don't know
Never waste my words on an empty sound
Never waste my time on what's come and gone
Never waste my soul on a shallow life
Never feel the steel of a love that dies
Never be the tears in a world of cries