It's a memory of fantasy of living life for the first time Something that burns in me I can't see cuz it's on my mind It's really quite simple but it's really not simple at all Immuned to all this pain and it's the reason I fall I'm losing friends left and right and then only left again I'm still losing friends how can I love it when I can't love myself Forgetting everything I've been and I'm Tearing through life that I don't want to live Just to see this god-forsaken life is tearing a hole thru me And I can't remember when I felt a little bit of love holding my hand And if I seen it I'd never believe it I'm all Alone again love is a little bit hold my hand Love is a love I don't want to pretend My angry and broken heart is so full of words that I forget to say So I give back my hate to all that want To talk about the God that they love so much But they never going to change and the church's doors are open unless You're searching for God God is only Found behind the doors of a searching heart And I can't remember when I felt a little bit of love holding my hand And if I seen it I'd never believe it I'm all Alone again love is a little bit hold my hand Love is a love I don't want to pretend It's so hard to make myself believe that someone cares And all the suffering breaks me up again Life so unfair I know I believe this lie that I'm going to be all right it's all in my head This hate inside of me is now it's Blinding me to this blood that I have bled And days will come when I only want to die to kill this pain I Search my heart for love but I Can't find enough for me to feel anything