I lock my door as the sun does rise As I observe the things that I despise I write down all the things I see I check my notes they're describing me My tears of joy are sad to you I can't feel hope like you do I always pray that the light will stay To light my soul, my soul is grey See the tears in my eyes they won't tell you no lies As you read my history See my fears go away as you taught me to pray The healing, the mystery If I could choose what I would do I'd stay in bed the whole life through The shiver me life once gave Is as exciting as my future grave I gaze alone at the setting sun I know today that I have won