Rising of a solemn ceremonial dawn
Fainting of a darkened yet resplendent sky
Gazing down at the shadows of those I left behind
Listening to the hollow overtaking stillness
So convinced of things to come on this day
I awaited the sunrise
I kissed all that I cared of
I paid off all I owed to anyone
I closed all doors carefully, closed the undone
I wanted to collect all these moments of joy
And I have them all stand all around me now
I'm ready, the time is ripe
The things undone no more standing in the way of my resolution
My final composure
I'm done trying to live
I walked up the road to that I planned to this tallest bridge across forever
You saw me passing by and never said a word
I climbed to the top and stood right on the edge
The sun was rising, the air was thin, and you could hear the water glides
The mind so clear for this everlasting moment of clarity
The feeling so pure and free of morals as I spread my arms wide
And then I felt this cold shivers creeping flesh
I turned around convulsively holding to the ground
So scared, so terrified, I didn't make a sound
And I stayed there kneeling down, despairing and facing the dirt
Calming down this trembling flesh and bones of this wretched self
I would never thought there could be anything more pathetic than this
Why can't we neither live nor die? Why are we so weak?...
Going back, my head's down
Uttermost disgrace, and a life to face
I'm sure you were there, why didn't you push me down?
Why didn't you push me down?
I have nothing to offer to anyone
But my own confusion, my will is done