Live with his own demons, human distress and suffering, keeping your head out of the water becomes Difficult, to not trust anyone, to betray life, even hell doesn't outfear my everyday nightmare's. the only Worthy thing is this addiction.to spoil your loved one's life, to lie and to manipulate just to find your way Out, (getting trapped into)thinking everything's alright when all is crumbling. suicide in daily thoughts, Psychosis and questionning, hell doors are open and angels of death flying above your head like starving Vultures.to always take the bad decision to the detriment of yourself. hate yourself more than anything You've ever hated.an endless cycle, pain and distress. being a good person but proving your not. untill You're alive, nothing is lost. believe in other things than this addiction.