I will never be enough
Clench my teeth and bite my tongue
Till the only thing I taste is blood
Squeeze my fists until my bones collapse
Hold my breath until my vision blacks
I feel nothing anymore
Dragged through the dirt
Feel my head ricochet off the fucking floor
I finally feel nothing
As empty as I know I've always been
I hope you see the absence of light in my eyes
I am curse forever
After twenty-seven years
It's become clear
I just want to disappear
Empty my body
Barbed wire it tears
Suffer
Negate me
I can't stop fucking shaking
I want to feel my hands fill with blood as it cascades from my face
I want the light to fade
I want the swelling to take over
I know I will never find my peace
And I don't want it
I would rather bleed to death
Then spend another moment here like this
Just fucking put me down
Just fucking put me down
Put me in the fucking dirt
Take me out
I fucking hate myself
I always have I always will
I always have I always will
I am broken and no one will notice it
Negate me
I can't stop fucking shaking
I want to feel my hands fill with blood as it cascades from my face
I want the light to fade
I want the swelling to take over
I know I will never find my peace
And I don't want it
Fucking hate myself
Always have always will
I know I can't find peace
And now I don't fucking want it
Put me in the fucking dirt
Put me down
Take me out
And when I've done my fucking time
Put me in the fucking ground
Trust no one
There is nothing left now
But to die