I have my fathers eyes And my mothers grin And I've carried his name as a heavy burden For 24 years I carried the blame But there's no love in a name Maybe if I held on then you'd come back You left us once, you left me twice Replaced us with a white picket fence and nuclear love You use that cross as a crutch A crooked dagger just to sever the ties between us A token problem child with slit wrists and tear stained cheeks Thinking that all this time because I showed it I was weak All I ever wanted was to be loved by you Does my absence keep you awake at night as you think about the person I am? Or have you accepted your shortcomings as a so called father? Am I even worth the time to take up that space in your mind? I knew I was a mistake, I just wish you never said it to my face I'm so sorry that I wished that you loved me I'm so sorry that I want you around Does this make me easier to love? Knowing that I've become the better person I've done this all on my own No thanks to you