If you can hear me out there I wanted you to know I called you home And with perfect timing and your hands around my waist Everything was fine And the world was okay My demons fell asleep Just as I soon will Emotions killed Theres no chase there's no thrill Now I'm left with the fear of not wanting to be in my own skin Because out of the blue, nothing feels right If you can still hear me out there You should know that I'm still weak at the knees And I wish that I could run away But I can't And I'm so sorry for the poetry I don't understand why I do these things to myself It's mutually assured destruction I'm just setting myself up to fail Break me I used to be so afraid of losing everything I loved So I refused to love anything at all And I don't know what hurts the most Then, I wasn't an option Because you hate me for hurting you and that is much easier to deal with When I hate myself for the same thing Let us be honest now, we would have ended up this way and hating You would be even more painful than hating me Your heartbeat was my favorite sound And I'd just hate to let you down