The colors of hate are black and gray Caught between sleeping and staying awake Force myself out of this black hole Only to come up short If pity is as petty does I'll live in fear of love & trust Feels like the last day of the rest I reside And this bludgeoning is real I reside (in a blank slate state of mind) I reside (in a blank slate state of mind) It's the only way to feel Alone in a dark room To scared to open my eyes (sewing together the limbs) Crying out can anyone hear me screaming On my knees want you to say It's no fault of your own An ocean of urgency overwhelms Burdens lay waste as the ground starts to swell Where's God when you need her Hiding in the dark when you need her If pity is as petty does I'll live in fear of love and trust Feels like the last day of the rest of my life This is a mistake I never meant to make Hold me underwater now Drown me slowly It speaks to me in riddles But I'm just fine Don't speak to me Take the air that I breathe Cuz I'm just fine Deflowering the orchid But I'm just fine Don't speak to me Take the air that I breathe