I can't seem to explain How my heart seems to ache When thoughts creep in And I am wide awake It's more than just a beat It cradles me in then ever so slightly Tightens it's grip The more I suffocate Why do I say things I'll regret? Why do I do things I wish I could forget? Why must I feel? Why do I hide? Why can't I let go of making mistakes for once in my life? But I guess I'm fine Same people telling me different things I'm tired but I'll listen anyway When can I feel safe? And here it comes Finds it's way inside Tells me to turn off the lights and lock the door Wants me to cry some more Why do I care when no one does? Why does it hurt? After all, she's won When will I drown 'Cause I'm in too deep? Why do I let myself love just to overthink? But I won't show I'm weak Oooh Ahhh Hmmm Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? I can't seem to explain When people ask me why I'm not okay It's better to leave it that way It's more than just feeling bad It's more than that, but they don't understand So what does it matter to them? Why do I hate the things I write? Why does my room feel far too tight? Where is your mind? Where is your smile? Where is the alcohol and where is all my time? But I'll be fine