I find it so hard to be true And all these lies I'm telling you Are little anchors in my chest That pull us down into this mess I find it easy to distract And just as soon as you turn your back I'll be gone again I find it so hard to be true And all the secrets I keep from you Are like a blackness in my heart That only tears us both apart I find it easy to pretend That we're not heading for our end This I'm telling you I built a wall I cut you off Now there's no lie that's gonna fix this up I played the saint And a saint I ain't Now all the hurt is here again Here again I find it so hard to be true But I'm gonna try my best for you And every distance that we've known Will disappear before too long And every line we've ever drawn Will be erased before we're gone And this I swear to you I built a wall I cut you off Now there's no lie that's gonna fix this hurt I played the saint I cursed your name Now there's no one but myself to blame That you're gone How could I live with this weight You keep on pushing on me They say it's never too late I'm afraid that we'll start falling When every word that you say I cut my heart up on it And you only pushed me away 'Til I was way beyond it I'm moving on without you There's no more fight left in me I'm breaking down all the walls You slowly built around me Why do you ask for my trust When you're not worthy of it? I find it hard to adjust To the lines you're drawing for me