Spending all my change on a bus pass
Ain't that some shit
I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing
No food in the crib
I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy
I feel I ain't shit
I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success
See how the other half live
Ay
Tryna be better I wanna be different
But I don't know if I want that or to fit in
Been tossing this thought in my mind so forgive me
Not making this song for me to get pity
I just want it all
But man these money issues got me feeling like breaking the law
But I know I won't
But let's say I do
I do not know who I'd give my one call
I'm doing this all by myself
I try to be strong
I don't need nobody's help
I gotta make it and that is the mission
So I can't rely on just me by myself
I've gotta be open
I've gotta be honest
I've gotta be giving a hundred percent of me
I don't know if I can take negativity
I've got some thick skin
Don't ever think any different about it
But I am my weakness
Getting wrapped up in my thoughts and my feelings
Till I feel defeated
Then I just get heated
Cuz I feel I'm doubting myself every evening
I don't know how to get over it
Try to be fortunate
Do I deserve it though
No I don't know
No I don't know
No I don't know
I am my own worst enemy
Spending all my change on a bus pass
Ain't that some shit
I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing
No food in the crib
I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy
I feel I ain't shit
I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success
See how the other half live
Woo woo
Spending all my change on a bus pass
Ain't that some shit
I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing
No food in the crib
I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy
I feel I ain't shit
I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success
See how the other half live
Ay
I'm always writing depressing shit
I don't know how else to mention it
I feel like I'm always the kid who never wins
No matter what life I live
Well I might as well just try rapping then
Give me the pain
Give the abuse
Give me the hate
Give me the noose
Give me no friends
Give me the pen
Give me the Beat
I'll write some heat
That's the only reason people will fuck with me
I've got supporters but no one who's loving me
Just wanna be happy to some degree
I'm speaking musically
But in all honesty
This shit it fucks with me
I stress out to the point that I don't eat
A day is a week
A week like a day
With how much I seep
My life's on repeat
I feel the need
To wake up every single day
And feel like a slave to the game
Say all my shames through the pain
Doing all of what I do just to give you some heat
I know that I feel this way because of me
But that's the type of the grind that it's gotta be
I don't know if y'all are following I've been
Spending all my change on a bus pass
Ain't that some shit (Ain't that some shit)
I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing
No food in the crib (No food in the crib)
I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy
I feel I ain't shit (I feel I ain't shit)
I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success
See how the other half live
Woo woo
Spending all my change on a bus pass
Ain't that some shit (Ain't that some shit)
I've been saving my money to blow it on marketing
No food in the crib (No food in the crib)
I've been kicking myself I'm my own worst enemy
I feel I ain't shit (I feel I ain't shit)
I've been hoping and dreaming to be a success
See how the other half live
Ay