I've been on my own for so long
That I bet that you'd probably guess it was easy
But it's just not good for my mental health
If you could take a look homie believe me
I've gotta be the one hyping me up
Even when I don't see any reason
But that's only made me stronger in the end
Cuz I know don't need no one to please me
I've been running from the streets
I've been rolling on repeat
I've gone through a million beats
I've come up from a kid in his bedroom
To now making some noise in the industry
Look what it did to me
Look what it turned me to
I am a monster not talking 'bout energy
It's in me
It's in everything that I do
Gets me amped up
Grinding every single day until bang
Imma turn into a rockstar
So quick man be a fan and get your popcorn
'Cuz I'll be putting on shows if you want more
So you better cop your seats before I'm on the top charts
You ain't never held your tongue before when I popped up
You never answered my calls for help
You'd just hang up
Now that you're calling on me
Well you get the same luck
I'm too busy working call you back when I ain't tied up
I've come a long way from that kid who had fears
Get bullied every day just to write through my tears
And I said that I'd make a damn name for myself
And I swear that I will man I swear that I will
I've been doing this for years
No one believed in me then
So tell me why now I've got all of these people
Hitting me up acting like they old friends
I don't believe it
I pour my heart and my soul into something
I know what's the reason
I know what you thinking
I know that you act like you with me when winning
But when I get knocked down I know you'll be leaving
I know you be scheming
I know you be plotting
But I don't see a way for me to go stop it
I love the support
But I only get it when chopping
I wanna be vulnerable
I just don't know how you'll take it when dropping it
Hate it or loving it
Guess I'm too caught up in that
Yes sir my mind is a trap
For all the negative thoughts and the feelings I have
When I'm writing like that
Can't take it back
I wish I could
For once I just wanna be more than just good
Wanna be heard
I want some food
I want some bread
I wanna feel like I'm right in the head
I wanna know that I'm writing up until the day that I'm dead
I wanna know that I'm set
Wanna be cashing some checks
Wanna be young and be blessed
Wanna be doing my best
Wanna get everything off my chest
Wanna be better
Wanna be great
When you talk about legends
I want you to think of my name
Want you to think of my face
Want me to be on replay
Want me to feel I ain't wasting the day
Grinding every day just to be self-made
But I can't help thinking this is all out of order
When I judge myself more than anyone else
But have to be my own biggest supporter
And I wanna be killing it
But too afraid that yall ain't feeling it
I give my all as if it's not evident
Look at my songs if you want some evidence
I'm just being me
I don't got No Time
To be no one else
Worry 'bout yourself
If you're talking 'bout negatives
Doesnt take much for me to get competitive
But don't take me as sensitive
You just don't know what my motive is
You don't know what's the cause of it
These sentences are written
So you can get the punishment
For making your music
And not thinking that it is rubbish man
On second thought I'm positive
That's why you on the substances
Your music is just shit
That's why to me you're prejudice
But I ain't new to this
You wanna judge my shit
You wanna be my nemesis
You wanna send some death threats
Just to add some emphasis
Well get in line
Shit
Where the fuck is the back of it
I'm just tryna follow dreams
Ain't as easy as it seems
I've gotta deal with all of your negativity
While we know I've got my own to defeat
I'm doing this for just you
I'm doing this for just me
Doing things you cant see
But the truth is
I know that I'm doing this because
I wanna leave a legacy