It feels like I've been running away
I don't even know what to say
All I know is that I feel trapped
I'm trapped
I'm trapped
And I just wanted to say
It feels like I've been running away
I don't even know what to say
All I know is that I feel trapped
I'm trapped
I'm trapped
And I just wanna say
That I'm feeling I left home
Way before I actually left home
I've been feeling all alone
Noone who even knows me knows
They'll just say that I'm wrong
And tell me I've had people right beside me all along
Then tell me why do I feel like this
Why do I write these songs
Why do I feel like shit
Even though I get compliments
Why do I feel like quitting
After all of the work I give
Why does it feel like shit stinks
No matter how far I get
How can I feel so motherfucking
Self-loathing but also so condescending
The negative thoughts in my head they just always feel so never-ending
So now more pretending
You're comprehending
The story's ending
Everyone just keeps piling on me
Can't take it my body's bending
From the weight of the world
And the stress of the arguments with myself
This type of shit really isn't that good for my health
But imma keep grinding 'til the only thing I stress about is wealth
'Till then it's just hell and a fucking cry for help
It feels like I've been running away
I don't even know what to say
All I know is that I feel trapped
I'm trapped
I'm trapped
And I just wanted to say
It feels like I've been running away
I don't even know what to say
All I know is that I feel trapped
I'm trapped
I'm trapped
And I just wanna say
I get lost up in my numbers
Get caught up in tryna comfort
My mind and it's always awful
To the point where I fucking suffer
Focus on success of others
And I know it just makes me wonder
About all of the chances I may have squandered
But I keep on moving forward
Until I fucking get bored of writing, recording, performing
All that just to end up going nowhere
And as I age
I wonder what life would have been like of I would have stayed
With my head out the clouds
My feet on the ground
That sounds insane
Imma be this way 'til I'm face to face with the pearly gates
It's a sick game
I do not plan on me missing all of this pain
If you want a piece then treat me like I'm your enemy
'Cuz I'm all out of branches with olives
It's just egging me on and because of that I feel like I've been a dick
But this ain't over easy
I'm just tryna remain strong
Remain calm through all of this shit
As I write my songs
Pouring out my heart into this
I feel like it's not enough
Fuck
It feels like I've been running away
I don't even know what to say
All I know is that I feel trapped
I'm trapped
I'm trapped
And I just wanted to say
It feels like I've been running away
I don't even know what to say
All I know is that I feel trapped
I'm trapped
I'm trapped
It'll always be this way