They say don't let them in
Close your eyes and clear your thoughts again
But when I'm all alone, they show up on their own
'Cause inner demons fight their battles with fire
Inner demons don't play by the rules
They say just push them down, just fight them harder
Why would you give up on it so soon
Shit keeps on going through my mind and I don't like it
I slave away on a new song then I rewrite it
'Cuz I don't wanna put anything out that I'm not proud in
I judge myself too hard and I know that that is a problem
But I've been doubted my whole life I'm just wanting to stop it
I know that no one ever believed in me as an artist
But how can your own father tell you that you are just garbage
You've never been in my life but yet you're still a part of it
I pour my heart into this and you tell me I should call it quits
You asking me why I never call
I don't want arguments
Don't wanna tell you all my accomplishments
Because you never give compliments
Haven't seen you for years
We're basically strangers
You don't know who you're talking with
About me
You're basically brainless
About you
I only know what your name is
To me it's your loss that you never fucking stuck around
But you're still my father and one day I hope that I can make you proud
They say don't let them in
Close your eyes and clear your thoughts again
But when I'm all alone, they show up on their own
'Cause inner demons fight their battles with fire
Inner demons don't play by the rules
They say just push them down, just fight them harder
Why would you give up on it so soon
Back when I was in school
I lost a lot of friends
But who would wanna be friends with a kid named mayhem
Bullied every single day by these upperclassmen
Then go home on the internet for some more harassment
Shit talk and death threats
All with no best friend
I was so alone and I fell into a depression
Contemplated taking my own life a couple times
Praying to God
Hoping he'd give me the strength I needed to survive
This is hard to admit but mom
I know your view on that situation and I'm so sorry
If I ever did anything like that to hurt you it'd be haunting
I was just going through some dark times that seemed so daunting
You know that I don't open up enough
To you it's frightening
But that's why I have music in my life it truly helps me
But don't you worry mom I'm really doing just fine
And I promise that I'll stay in touch and call you all of the time
They say don't let them in
Close your eyes and clear your thoughts again
But when I'm all alone, they show up on their own
'Cause inner demons fight their battles with fire
Inner demons don't play by the rules
They say just push them down, just fight them harder
Why would you give up on it so soon
And I just wanna say
I really think my life is great
I've got some good friends
Some day ones
And a girl that I love
And now I'm lucky enough to see her every day that I want
And I have the opportunity to follow my passion
And I've been doing so ever since way back when I was a freshman
My inner demons ain't nothing I should be stressing
'Cuz they make me work harder
Push my haters away farther
Make my weaknesses my strength
I guess that is the lesson
And I don't need no fucking dad in my life
Don't need no fucking fatherly advice
And when I finally have kids
I'll know to do what's right
And I don't even need no fake fans or fake supporters
I've gotten this far without people telling me that I'm awesome
But for the ones who truly fuck with my shit
I appreciate it
Probably way more than anyone ever could ever imagine it
I'm doing this for a bigger picture than just me
I'm doing this for the kids fighting their own demons and for the ones who already feel damaged
They say don't let them in
Close your eyes and clear your thoughts again
But when I'm all alone, they show up on their own
'Cause inner demons fight their battles with fire
Inner demons don't play by the rules
They say just push them down, just fight them harder
Why would you give up on it so soon