I think I'm better off here
I asked you, not to follow
I just need some time to be alone
Let me collapse in on myself
Given time, I'll be fine please
Understand this is just my cross to bear
I wonder if I am really better off alive
Or if I should have died that night
Well, I know it's not right
But it gets so hard sometimes
As I grow weary from this war within my mind
I know I shouldn't be here
Please give me just a moment
There are things I feel I should explain
I don't know why I get this way
I wish I didn't do this
I'm just so scared of driving you away
Maybe it's true
That every day's a little harder than the last
As we become too tired
To deal with all the shit expected from us
But me, I think that we just play that we're the victim
When our fantasies don't turn out
Quite the way that we've envisioned, no
I don't know how I got here
It's cold and dark, and I'm afraid
To be in this familiar place
The echoes seem to linger
The stains of time are seeping through
I cannot wash you off my skin
Well, I am just a broken toy
I cannot blame you for discarding me
No, I could not blame you for anything at all
Even your god has turned her back on me
Forgotten what it once meant to believe
I can no longer bear the wretched weight of being
I wonder if I am really better off alive
Or if I should have died that night
Died that night
Well, I know it's not right
But it gets so hard sometimes
As I grow weary from this war within my mind
Within my mind