I just need a heavy dose of melatonin
Or we could pop a couple bottles, just something that's potent
I pay attention to the noise, i could barely afford it
And now whenever that i write you know that it's important
'Cause i rarely talk about what's in my notebook
You only know a piece of me, that's like a song with no people only feel me on that surface level
And that's fine, i get it, but don't act like you own a rental
Back in '98 i found my voice
And God gave me a gift and i use it without a choice
And i love this shit, excuse me for being frank
But it's true i'm trying to make it, i'm just giving back my thanks
And it's a way for me to minimize the static
When my life is getting busy and getting harder to manage
So pick a vinyl from my mind and put the needle on
And if you like it then just keep along
This is my medicine
This music thang is my medicine
I need a dose of my medicine
When i'm down
So let me go and take you back
To the time when i wasn't 'bout shit
And i was carrying garbage bags of my outfits
17 and i was kicked out of the house with
A couple dollars and my pride, that's what counted
And my bed was nothing more than a couch
Just wanted to get bitches and bring 'em back to the house
That wasn't even mine, with some friends that never judged
And i was looking for signs of people that i could trust
I was down and i was looking for clarity
I was lucky i survived, i had friends who took care of me
I swear, i was on the brink of insanity
But my brothers took me in and put a battery pack in me
I got better over time but every now and then
A part of me wants to do it all over again
But i would never hurt the ones i love on purpose
'Cause i would be the one that's hurtin
They're my medicine
The ones i love are my medicine
I need a dose of my medicine
When i'm down
Momma always told me
That i could be a star if i wanted to be one
My mind was always thinking big 'cause she gave me the freedom
Gave me the drive and i just needed to put the key in
I didn't want to talk about it, i wanted to be it
There were times when i thought she had given up on me
But that's the way i grew because she gave the toughest love to me
And i was just too young to understand it
And everything she provided, i took it all for granted
I thought i had it on my own but i was being naive
When i was losing control, she helped me back on my feet
When my future wasn't clear, she gave me glasses to see
I wonder where i would be
Without the strength of my mom
She's the compass when i lose direction
I see the hope she gave me when i look at my reflection
I just want to let you know i'm better now
And i just want to make you proud
Dearest momma, you're my medicine
Dearest momma, you're my medicine
I need a dose of my medicine
When i'm down