I used to be a straight edged kid
With my head on tight
My life was so proper
But some where down the road
I took a turn
That made into a monster
It seemed like over night
I tossed out every rule I used to live by
I used to care about myself
But now it's like fuck it, I do what I feel like
God forgive me
I'm not a saint
And I know that I've had my run
I had some friends who left my side
But lately I've been numb
I'd take the time to tell them what I feel
But I bite my tongue
'Cause I know they don't mean a thing
To people who are done
I just need my great escape
I'm talking 'bout a quick clean getaway
I don't even recognize myself anymore
I feel like I have lost my self control
I'm going down like a sinking ship
I'm sinking.
I used to be a care free guy
Now I'm up every night
Trying to solve my problems
3 o'clock in the morning
I'm awake, eyes wide, in my bed
And it feels like a coffin
My chest feels heavy. My grip is weak
And my mind is over crowded
If people ask me if I'm okay
I say, "I don't want to talk about it."
God forgive me
I know I need some help
But I can't swallow my pride
I have these secrets
I choose to keep
That slowly eat me alive
My life has been so out of sync
But outside I look like I'm fine
But am I alright? "Yes". that was a lie
I just need my great escape
I'm talking 'bout a quick clean getaway
I don't even recognize myself anymore
I feel like I have lost my self control
I'm sinking fast
I'm sinking fast so save me if you can