I know I've been vacant afraid to feel a thing Afraid if I do it will leave me again These sunken in eyes no longer see the good in anything anymore What have I become I used to believe in something more I used to feel the need to love What have I become Now I look for you in everything I see And I'm still searching for the warmth I used to feel inside of me I couldn't save you I couldn't bare to take the news How could I walk away When you were all I ever knew If your heavens real I hope that you are looking down at me Knowing I spent mine with you And I have tried to fight the urge to join you But I still feel the void I still feel the ache I'm still incomplete I want to feel the need to love I want to turn it all around I want to find myself And I need you to know that I'm learning to accept the things that I can't change I lost myself again And I found myself wishing for the things I never said I never meant to leave you behind