I feel terrible
On purpose for personal gain
I stay caught up in the things that I brought up a year ago
This is a miracle
I think I'm going insane by definition
I know that I'm in it
I keep doing this shit that I know that I shouldn't like over and over again
Damn
I'm staying out the way the best I can
But it's not a secret that I am conceded and this is just part of the plan
So now I think we have an understanding of the damn thing
I feel terrible - I can tell that you're feeling the same
The weight of everything that's going on lately
And how I kind of let it bring me down - maybe it sounds crazy
But I feel terrible
I know they can hear me
They watch through the TV
And even though I am online incognito I still get the feeling they see what I'm reading
O, God
They know what I'm thinking
They're begging and pleading to give them a reason to show up outside
While I'm smoking a cigarette looking the other direction
I realize how paranoid that sounds
But give me some credit
The last couple years have been crazy
Admit it
I thought I was alone until I opened up my phone
And got an ad for something I had just been talking to myself about
I feel terrible - I can tell that you're feeling the same
The weight of everything that's going on lately
And how I kind of let it bring me down - maybe it sounds crazy
But I feel terrible
I used to think that I was permanent
Like everything I did was somehow relevant
Like how could I have ended up in hell again
I get what I deserve and keep it moving, man
But then I start to panic
In the presence of the planet I have nothing good to say
So maybe I just need the world to get out of my way
Or I need a drink
Maybe two
I feel terrible