I used to claim to be the kid who would make my family proud, I never thought this was how i'd turn out, letting people down. Living this way at the age of eighteen Chasing just another dead end dream. I'm fighting battles with my mind and maybe someday i'll feel okay. But i'm sat alone at home Thinking about everything That's changed and gone away And i'm getting used to it. All i ever wanted was a sense of purpose Out on the road here for better or worse In the back of a van with my old friends Thing's aren't the best but we can still pretend. Up all night with heavy eyes Smoking cigarettes and getting high Thinking about how i got kicked out I feel pretty damn alone now there's no doubt I know i can win the battles i'm fighting I've just finished college it's perfect timing For me to go out and prove to you That i've got some drive and a future too. But now i'll stay at home In this quiet town, all alone And write more sad songs, All about my fucked up home. You're the only one i've got i don't wanna lose you I know i fucked up but somehow we'll pull through I still wish i could be how i used to Just a little kid with some growing up to do. I wish i still wanted to be like you But i've moved on and you should too, So this is a note to say i'm leaving Maybe someday i'll get past this feeling. But now i'll stay at home In this quiet town, all alone And write more sad songs, All about my fucked up home. You're the only one i've got i don't wanna lose you I know i fucked up but somehow we'll pull through And you know i'll still call at the end of each day I'll let you know when i'm better and if i feel okay.