You tell me to smile With tears on your cheeks You tell me to forget you But you keep on calling me at night You tell me to smile But ma hearts in your hands You tell me it's okay When everything feels wrong You tell me to stop but the clock keeps ticking But my hearts still beating I don't wanna be the one to save yourself But i don't wanna be the one to make you cry I turn off ma phone Lock ma self in my room Life is hard i know I'm the one that weak I turn off ma phone Lock ma self in my room Life is hard i know I'm the one that weak Show me the way Show me the way Show me the way Show me the way To the light i'm enough with the dark I was born where the stars don't shine Poppin couple pills But i don't feel a thing I throw ma money To buy things Just make me feel ugly It's cold outside so i go outside I think i should end this now Pull the trigger Pull the trigger Put the gun in ma head I'm I'm already dead I don't need nothing I just wanna feel something They call me a freak But fuck i don't even know your name Today I'm sober ye The next day i don't even know where I'm at