I've done the unspeakable And thought the unimaginable I've hid it to the world And knowing every hour past As grains fall through this hourglass My guilt inside is stirred And I wonder who I am tonight As I lay here in this bed awake Is it so hard to confront the truth That it's Your heart I am bound to break Everything keeps falling apart But I can't keep doing this in my heart So won't you please be near me Take away my shame Everything keeps falling apart But I can't keep doing this in my heart And in the end you'll see I'll Be here in Your name I can't take emotionally The patience that You've shown to me It cuts me to the heart The times of my embarrassment Are far too many times I've spent Rewinding to the start I've been living in a cynical lie A symptom of a jaded view But now I've come to realize That nothing good can come apart from You Jesus, You can carry me to become What You want of me I wanna be the faithful child