You told a joke Cuz my face got all flushed in the kitchen light 21 But you've been drinking most of your life And I feel cold While you're faded Most nights When did I Lose the urge To go outside It's been a year and some If I'm grown then where's my wisdom You live like you're under the influence Don't care who looks when you make a mess I wish I was a little less Scared to dance in a party dress On the roof They play games on white tables I don't want to climb What's to lose But the rest of my dignity spilled on the bathroom tiles I feel old And like a baby at the same time When did it Become weird not to get high It's been a year and some If I'm grown should I feel this young You live like you're under the influence Don't care who looks when you make a mess I wish I was a little less Scared to dance in a party dress Out of luck and I'm ready to go Cuz the music's too loud and I'm here all alone Should I just give up? Shouldn't I be the type to be stumbling home Dizzy and drunk With the people I love You live like you're under the influence Don't care who looks when you make a mess I wish I was a little less Scared