I found a strand of your hair right in my pillowcase
I can't describe the feeling how my heart aches
There's so many things that I wish I could say
I guess I only wonder if you're playing it safe
Everything was meant only to be just not as long as it seemed
But I could never cheat on you, or even anyone
Unless they did it to me first because I might be that petty
My insecurities, there might be too many
I wanted nothing more than us going steady
It's such a shame how the times have changed
I renounce it all and let the feeling remain
Another day, dead and gone to waste
I tried to go back and find it, that's when I knew I was wrong
Ran out of words to describe it, that's when I ruined the song
All the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
Wish I was feeling something other than pain
And I've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
Worried I'm working without something to gain
Aching from the weight of my grief, show me mercy
Show me mercy
But I could never cheat on you, or even anyone
Unless they did it to me first because I might be that petty
My insecurities, there might be too many
I wanted nothing more than
I spent my days trying to be multifaceted
In some years I'd try to tally up the damages
I can't hope you'd take me back, I guess I'm past it
And like the other song goes, "I like to do magic"
Fear is only a feeling that only feelings can change
I still try to maintain, but despite everything strange
Our different phases of life, I'll never blame
I light the ****** and hope the emotions fade
I tried to go back and find it, that's when I knew I was wrong
Ran out of words to describe it, that's when I ruined the song
All the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
Wish I was feeling something other than pain
I've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
Worried I'm working without something to gain
How can ever keep myself from harm
Running away to scream inside my car