Pull out my hair for fun and run my nails right down my face Wake up disoriented almost every single day Wishing each dream I had was real finding Out they're not and that I'm trapped in here With myself in my room alone alone (alone alone) You may think life is fun But sometimes I don't see it that way I started medication weaned myself off That happiness was artificial and fake Don't you agree? If my happiness has to be forced then it wasn't meant to be Oh I don't wanna force it I'm fine Listen when I say I wanna die with at least A quick release of every bad thing that has ever happened to me Take my hand to the end I wanna see it all fall I wanna watch my mind break with it Take my hand to the end I wanna see it all fall I wanna watch my mind break with it My mind is melting From things around it Like caskets buried With dirt around them I tried to climb out But I fell back in I'll put up white flags to tell them I give in